"D" Day 08.10.2010

When is "D" day.. that is the burning question that I am constantly thinking about; the crazy thing to me is that nobody really knows.. well except Everly. She can arrive anytime now until almost 2 weeks after my due date... seriously for the next 5 weeks my life is on hold because any moment I could go into labor and my life will drastically be forever different. I can't even make plans anymore.. my replies have been the following "I will be there unless I am having a baby..." WTF.. LOL. Seriously with all this technology they can't give me my real "D" date so I can plan my life accordingly? Instead I have to wait for the next 5 weeks wondering will my water break.. if it does will I be at work... will I remember my hospital bag... what will labor feel like... will I know if I am in labor... okay stupid questions maybe but 5 weeks is a long time to ponder all these things.. it is too much time. Everyday I wake up I wonder will this be the day I become a mom... every night I go to bed I think will this be the night my water breaks... um talk about anxiety building up inside of me. Needless to say I have been thinking about this a lot lately.. kind of hard not to when your stomach is so massive you can't even see your feet.. LOL. I am so ready to be done with pregnancy.. I know it will all be worth it in the end when I get to hold my daughter for the first time.. but seriously this whole 9 months of hell needs to be renegotiated... can't we compromise and do 5 months instead.. who can I take this matter up with? I feel like us women are totally getting fucked on the whole deal. Or at least let us have alcohol or eat raw fish or drink as much caffeine as I want.. or not get so massive. So I am a little bitter.. I know but I think I have been bitter this whole pregnancy so this shouldn't be too much of a surprised. Will I miss being pregnant? HELL NO!!! LOL. I know some women LOVE being pregnant but I am not one of them.. I know I will miss Everly's movements but I think I will enjoy her more on the outside than in the inside.. of course that will probably be true after all those sleepless nights:) So I guess "D" day will remain a mystery until it happens.